Lish: 0:22

What's up everybody, welcome back to I'll Just Let Myself In, The podcast, which a girlish speaks, we're back with another episode. Listen. If this is your first time here, what we do at I'll Just Let Myself In is encourage you to walk through the God-given doors of opportunity that he's ordained for your life without waiting for permission from anyone else. So if that sounds like there's something that's exciting to you, you are in the right place.

Lish: 0:46

I'm super excited about this week because I'm doing a solo episode which shout out to y'all. Because y'all show so much love to my solo episodes. Many people have told me I love when you do a solo episode. I look forward to your solo episodes. So that's encouraging for me, because I actually get anxiety sometimes when I have to do a solo episode. I look forward to your solo episodes. So that's encouraging for me, because I actually get anxiety sometime when I have to do a solo episode. I prefer to have a guest. I think in my mind that's more interesting for the viewer, but it's been really cool to just see the feedback numbers wise and hear the feedback about how you all feel about my solo episode. So shout outs to y'all. But I'm super excited about this episode because I'm going to talk about something that is so present ever present in my life these days and that is discipline. The title of this episode is Into Discipline. All right, so y'all know how we do.

Lish: 1:42

We got our first segment that I always use to kick it off. It's called what I'm Stepping In and it's basically just where I show you guys the sneakers that I'm wearing this week and kind of tell you how I feel about them. And today I'm wearing some old school Vans, a skater shoe. I actually have had these shoes, which you'll see when we cut to. I've had these shoes for years. See, when we cut to, I've had these shoes for years. And recently I was going through some of my old shoes and I found them and was like man, I haven't put on my Vans in a minute. So I decided I would go ahead and wear these Vans.

Lish: 2:13

But listen, vans are super comfortable. Like I said, they're a skater shoe. So the whole point of them is to be able to have great mobility. I find them to be really flexible and fun with outfits. This pair particular is pretty calm and muted, so what I like about that is I can wear it with anything and it really does give me that mom vibe Like. It gives me like I'm chilling, but I need to be comfortable and I'm vibing and so, yeah, I love that.

Lish: 2:41

I'm in that era. I'm not in the mom era. Before y'all started asking me questions, I'm not in the mom era, but I am in the era of comfortability and just wearing sneakers that I enjoy and not necessarily what all the hype is all the time. So y'all know the drill here I tell you about the sneakers and I tell you if you like them, go get you some. So y'all uh, as I said, this episode is called into discipline and the whole reason that I decided to do the episode on this particular topic, because what I do just to let y'all into my world a little bit as things come to me throughout the week I have notes in in my phone, as probably most of us do, and I have a note for podcast topics, I have a note for video topics. I have a note for things I want to study on my Bible. I have a note for quotes that inspire me, like I have a note for everything, and so I have a note in my phone with podcast topics. And you know, as I was preparing earlier this week for the pod, I was looking through my topics, looking through my topics, and I was like these are all good and I could definitely make an episode around them, but none of this is like what I'm going through right now, and so I just said right now I'm in an era of discipline, so that's what I'm going to talk about and listen.

Lish: 4:04

The truth is, I'm in an era of discipline because the motivation and inspiration has run out. It's not present right now. I do not feel motivated, I don't feel inspired to do a lot of the things that I'm, that I'm called to do right in this season. I actually don't even feel inspiring. It's so funny.

Lish: 4:27

I was at a close friend's baby shower recently and it was like a big reunion, because that's someone from the church that I used to go to and so it was like a big reunion and I got to see a lot of old faces and friends and people were like man. I've been watching your podcast. I've been seeing you on social media Like and people were like man. I've been watching your podcast. I've been seeing you on social media Like I'm so inspired and the whole time I'm thinking like I don't feel very inspired or inspiring right now, and it's not so much that I'm going through the motions. I'm just in a season where the things that I said that I was gonna do, I have to keep doing, even though the feeling I had when I said I was gonna do them is no longer present at the current moment. And that's where discipline really just comes in. You know, I wish that I could tell you that I'm just as motivated as I was when I started not just this podcast, but several things. But baby motivation has left the chat, like she's gone right now and she might come back next week, but, but right now it's hard for me to do the things that I said I would do earlier this year.

Lish: 5:36

I think part of it is that I I changed and started a lot of new things at one time. Now some people would not recommend this. They're like don't try to change everything at the same time, don't try to start everything at the same time, I am the type of person I'm very all or nothing. It's just who I am. If I give myself an out, I will take it, and so when I start something, I have to be all in.

Lish: 6:03

The downside to that is that a lot of times I will just fall off of what I said I was going to do, and I used to attribute that to like, oh, I just get bored, or oh, I just get overwhelmed easily, and then I just stop because I'm doing too much. But what I've realized is that I'm just undisciplined, or I was undisciplined, because the people that I look up to, the people who I want to be, like the me who I see in the future, which we're going to get to in a moment they are all busier than I am right now. So if it always comes to I'm just overwhelmed, I just took on too much. So that's why I stopped. I just got burned out. I will never get to where I want to be. So I had to really realize like, listen, you got to become more disciplined.

Lish: 6:53

You know, I was talking to my husband a couple of weeks ago now and I was trying to convince him to allow me. I was trying to convince him to allow me Some of y'all gonna have a problem with that part, but that's between you and Jesus to allow me to get an assistant. I was trying to say, hey, let's, let's put it in the budget, you know, to get me an assistant, and if you know my husband, he pretty much gives me whatever I want. But he just said you don't need an assistant, you just need to work harder. And when I tell you, I was like, uh, but then I had to realize, oh, this is the person who lives with me, this is the person who sees how hard I'm working every day and he knows I'm working hard, but he believes I could work harder. And if he didn't believe that I could do any more than I'm doing right now, he would be on board to get me an assistant, because any other help that we've needed, any other things we've needed to outsource, whether it's household content, whatever he's been on board to do that. And so I felt like it was a gut check for me in the creative space. I was talking about getting an assistant in the creative space. That man. I need to grow in my discipline and you know, discipline will take you much further than inspiration or motivation, because discipline really begins when those things end.

Lish: 8:19

Just to give you guys a little bit of a picture of what all I've been working on, you know, in March I went to the doctor. I did not have a favorable visit and do I want to tell y'all my diagnosis? Sure, I'll tell y'all. So I was diagnosed type two diabetic on the very beginning of that, in terms of my A1C. So, glory to God, I'm not insulin resistant, I don't need to take insulin. But my doctor was like, if you don't change, you will be on insulin. So you got to change and you got to change immediately. We got to get this A1C down. So you got to change and you got to change immediately. We got to get this a1c down.

Lish: 9:06

I have been pre-diabetic for years, right, and kind of worked on my fitness, stopped, worked on my fitness, stopped. And there's a lesson even in that, because if I had stayed disciplined the pre-diabetic wouldn't have got to diabetic. But I got that diagnosis and she was like, listen, you know you're right over the number to be considered type two diabetic. We can get this A1C down in the next several months. But you got to focus and so she gave me some instructions about things that I needed to do and things I needed to change and, to be honest, even the instructions were gracious, like she was like listen, be smart, you know, I'm not gonna tell you, don't have any carbs, don't have any. But if something is outright sugar, don't eat it. Don't eat a cupcake, a cookie, a pancake, like, just let it go for a few months, let's see what it does to your body. And, listen, am proud, so proud, to say that since March 14th because I remember the day your girl has not had a cupcake, cookie, pancake, waffle, donut, none of that stuff.

Lish: 10:17

Right, um, I also stopped drinking, um, and I wasn't a heavy drinker, I'm a Christian, I'm a disciple, but I I did drink occasionally and you know, my doctor was like, listen, when you drink, you stop burning fat, you know. So you can drink moderately, but I wouldn't recommend it. I said, no, I'll take it out altogether, right? Um, my husband and I are in the we're building, we're building our lives right now. And, um, we are also, uh, self-funded over here at this here podcast of ours, along with many of the other things that we do. We're involved in our church, we give there, we do different things.

Lish: 10:56

And so we've been thinking about okay, how can we be great stewards? You know we're blessed enough to have great jobs, you know we're dinks. So double income, no kids, you know we, we're in a good place. But okay, how can we be good stewards of our finances? So I've chilled on the shopping. Now, y'all know me, I like to shop, okay. So we've chilled on the shopping, budgeted we're saving for a home, all that stuff right, um, and I have realized that all of the substances or things I would use have kind of like been snatched away from me, um, and, and I've let them go.

Lish: 11:38

But at first it felt like a high, like okay, good, like I'm not eating this way, I'm going to be working out. We started, we joined a gym, we started working out four to five times a week. You know we hit it hard and my husband's very supportive of me. He has his own health journey, so we hit it hard. Um, we got a, you know, a savings goal in my savings goal in mind. We obviously doing the podcast, obviously doing um content, and we invested in that. So purchasing, purchasing cameras and lights, all the things right, and it felt like so much fun at first, like listen, I feel like I'm reaching new heights, like your girl is, I'm becoming the girl I want to be.

Lish: 12:14

And about two weeks ago I don't know what happened, but all that excitement, all that, all this is this is good and all is lit I started to feel none of that. I started to really feel like yo, I, this ain't what I want, like it's too much. I don't feel like posting, I don't feel like creating this content schedule. I don't feel like filming, I don't feel like going at these opportunities with brands. I don't feel like. Don't like even yo, it's funny, don doesn't even notice.

Lish: 12:44

But he sent the episodes to my husband and my. My husband's like, do you want to watch? I was like you can, you can watch them and you can, I'm so hands-on the fact that I was like baby, you just watch them and send Don the notes. That's how checked out I've been for the last several weeks. I haven't even watched the episodes. Like I'm just like. I trust you, I'm not my. I haven't been motivated. I haven't been in the mode of creation. Um, by the time y'all see this, this will have changed, but I haven't posted on social media in like almost two weeks.

Lish: 13:12

Um, I just wasn't in the, in the feelings, and I have to make sure that when I am looking into the, the woman that God wants me to be, I'm recognizing that she is a disciplined woman. She is not a woman that is controlled by her feelings. She is not a woman that only does things when she feels like doing them. She's not a woman that goes back on her word right. And so one of the reasons that I'm filming this podcast right now is because I said I would right, like, whether I feel like it or not, or whether I'm in the best headspace or not, this is what I told God I would do. And I was listening to this sermon this morning from Sarah Jakes and she said you can tell what God believes about you by what he places on your life for you to do. And I was so convicted by that because I'm like Lord, I don't see what you see all the time.

Lish: 14:28

I definitely struggle, had a whole breakdown in my husband's arms two weeks ago Like what if I'm not capable of all that I've signed up for? Because, outside of this podcast, I do like real ministry, like 40 hours a week at a church, 40 hours a week on paper, probably more than that some weeks. You know, I have a family, I'm busy, and so I'm like what if I can't do all this? What if I'm not good enough? And obviously to my husband that sounds crazy. He's like you're the most qualified person I know to do these things, but I don't always feel that and I don't always feel motivated to push beyond the, the self-doubt that I may have or the questions that I may have about my own ability or adequacy, and so I am really locked in right now to to the understanding that discipline is the only way forward. Like there's no, there's no other way for me to do this. There's no other way for me to become the person that I want to be.

Lish: 15:39

You know, when you partner dietary changes, working out at 7 am, going after branding deals, doing ministry, personal relationships, being a wife, being a friend, you know, being a host, doing all the different things that I do, it would be silly for me to think that it's always going to be fun. So I had to check my own like maturity, honestly, like honestly, and I think of myself as a pretty mature person. But when I was having these feelings like, oh, I don't feel like this and I don't feel like that. I had to really check myself, like yo, let's grow up. Grow up. You want to be a mom, you want to be a boss, like I have dreams of, if it's God's will, for my life being on a television show. For my life being on a television show, like being a nationally syndicated daytime television show host. Do you think she's going to be less busy than I am right now? Like if you're whining about this, you don't. You may not want what you think you want.

Lish: 16:43

And so I'm having these realizations and figuring out how to stay on track with the things I said I was going to do, and I'm going to share those with y'all because I know I'm not the only one, right? I know that somebody else who's listening to this, somebody who's watching this, is saying oh, me too. Yeah, I'm struggling too. I don't feel like doing this no more either. There's been days where I'm like I want ice cream now, I want a cookie, I want something to make me feel better in the moment, and then forget the fact that I don't see results right away. Right, because I ain't had a cookie since March. I think I should be 100 pounds down. I mean, what's the problem. Why is this taking so long? You know what I mean. I haven't had a cookie, I haven't had a drink. What's the problem? I haven't had a cookie, haven't had a drink, like what's the problem? I'm doing the stuff. I'm going to the gym, you know, and I'm not understanding why the results are slow or slow in my eyes.

Lish: 17:43

But I'm also learning that that's what discipline does. Discipline really allows you to be okay with the time that it's going to take to reach where you're trying to go, and so all these things are growing me up and I think they'll do the same for you if you let them. Discipline also really helps you to kind of see where you actually are faster and to have that self-awareness. You know, people always say discipline will take you places. That motivation can't, because your goals don't care how you feel right and they don't. There are things that I want that there's no way. I don't care how many favors I call in, I don't care who I know, I don't care who knows me, I don't care who follows me, who reposts my stuff. If I don't do the work, the opportunity will not come, period. If I don't grow in certain areas, the opportunity will not come.

Lish: 18:44

You remember that saying that O-Heads used to say. I think it went something like if you, if you run from the work, you might as well hide from the money. I love that saying. I heard somebody say it recently and I was like man, I heard somebody say that in a long time but I needed to hear that. Like, if you run from the work, you might as well hide from the money. And if money is not your motivation, that's fine. And if money is not your motivation, that's fine. But this applies to a lot of places. You know, if you run from the gym, you might as well hide from the weight loss, right? If you run from the self-awareness and accountability, you might as well hide from the healing. If you run from the truth about your relationship with money, you might as well hide from financial freedom.

Lish: 19:32

Like, you have to do the hard part first. You have to. There's no way around it. And there's so many of us, there's so many of us who are stuck emotionally. We're stuck relationally. We don't have the friendships we want. We don't have the relationships with our kids that we want. We don't have the relationship with our parents that we want, because we refuse to do the hard part. We refuse to have the hard talks, we refuse to say, hey, I don't like this and I need you to change it. We refuse to set boundaries, we refuse to accept other people's boundaries, like so much of the hard part that will get us to where we want to be the discipline that it would take to do that. We just refuse to do it.

Lish: 20:13

And so that really got me together in the last two weeks, I would say, about my mindset on doing the hard part, you know, and one of the greatest things in terms of the fitness, because, like I said, we made these dietary changes. My husband and I have been working out, you know, making these changes and, just like any other thing that you change, there's going to be moments where you are so tempted to just fall back into your old ways, right, you're tempted to just not do what you said you were going to do, and that usually happens in transition, right. Discipl, discipline is really tested most in transition. We're gonna get to that in a second. But my husband and I had gone on a trip to New York. He had to go for work.

Lish: 20:59

I shot some podcast episodes which y'all will see, um, and so when we were in New York. We did a lot of walking. You know, new York is you moving? So we moved our bodies. We came back, we weighed ourselves. We didn't really gain much weight, but we were like we got to get back in the gym immediately because we off our schedule, whatever.

Lish: 21:19

Lo and behold, we might have went to the gym like one time that week, and so we're getting into the next week and the spirit put something so amazing in my mind. We, we're laying in bed, we're talking and we hadn't been to the gym probably in about a week. At that point and I turned over to my husband and I said are we gonna go to the gym tomorrow? He was like yeah, yeah, we need to go, yeah, we need to go. I said yeah, because we're becoming people who don't work out. And he looked at me. He was like that's deep, you're right and that's really discipline. That even made me say that, because so many times when we're undisciplined, it takes us a long time to realize that we're falling off. But if you are a person who's trying to eat right and you have three, four days of you eating poorly, guess what? You are now becoming a person who eats poorly, just like if you change that and you start going to the gym and you go to the gym four days in a row, you are now becoming a person who goes to the gym. We are always becoming something. We just gotta decide what we're becoming.

Lish: 22:30

And I think about the woman that I want to be y'all, she's a bad chick like, not just physically, but all around. And so one of the things I've been using, um, since we gotten back into the gym, gotten back into our you know our schedule, um, I've been using this whole idea of you. Know, what would the woman that you want to be do in this situation? Right, and what habits does she have? And let me tell you something I use this for everything, not just fitness, not just like. I use this for everything, like when I don't want to get up and study my Bible. Right, I know none of y'all have this problem. I know everybody is super spiritual. You get up, you do a two hour time with God every day. You got your concordance and you it's just me, I know, but when I don't want to get up and study my Bible, I will ask myself the woman that you want to be, does she read her Bible every day? The answer is yes, she don't skip a day.

Lish: 23:34

The woman that I want to be, the women's minister that I want to be and that's regardless of whether I work for a church or not, I always want to be able to minister to women she reads her Bible every day. So guess what you need to do? You need to read your Bible every day, you know. Does the woman that I want to be go to the gym? Is she fit? Can she play with and run after her kids or her nephews, or what she can? So I need to do what I need to do to get to that woman. You know, does the woman that I want to be, does she serve and love her husband unconditionally? She does, whether she's having a good day, a bad day.

Lish: 24:20

Now I'm, I'm, I'm blessed that I have a man who is very, um, easy. My husband's very easy to please, right, he's not demanding at all. Um, he like, he wants what he wants, but he's very gracious. He's right, he's not demanding at all. He wants what he wants, but he's very gracious he's not, you know. But even with that, let's be real, sometimes you just don't feel like doing certain things. You know, I was with one of my interns and so we had like a spa movie night for the girls in our team ministry and you know we had had a meeting that morning. I had had.

Lish: 24:52

I just had a busy day, several calls, um, and a lunch with with, uh, her and one of the other interns, and she came back to my house, uh, to like just be here until the movie thing, and so we had done some work and talking and whatever, and, um, you know, about an hour or so before we're going to leave, I got out to cook dinner and she was like, okay, you can cook whatever. And she was laughing because I told her if I was single I wouldn't be cooking right now. I have some cereal, some popcorn, something at this event. But the woman that I want to be takes care of her household before she goes out and takes care of the world. So I got up and I cooked. Now, some days that may mean ordering food. Right, I'm not saying you always got to be superwoman and cook three meals a day and do all of this stuff.

Lish: 25:41

But I asked myself, do am I? I asked myself, am I behaving like the woman that I see when I think about my future. You know, when I close my eyes and I think about you know who I want to be, it is. It stirs my heart Y'all like my heart beats faster. You know that scripture in Ephesians 320, that says that God could do immeasurably more than we could ask or imagine, ask or think. I believe that. I know it to be true because I see it in my own life, and so when I think about some of the lofty goals that I have, I really believe God can do it. But I know that he will not do it if he can't trust me with the things that he's put on me to do right now.

Lish: 26:28

And you know, sometimes you just don't feel like reading your Bible. You don't feel like going to the gym, you don't feel like saving and being responsible financially. You don't feel, you know, like this or that. But the truth of the matter is the enemy really uses. The enemy uses our feelings to take us away from what we actually want to feel Like. Think about it. You don't feel like studying your Bible, but you want to feel closer to God. You don't feel like working out or eating right, but you want to feel healthy in your body. You want to feel better than you're feeling. You don't feel like being financially responsible, but you want to feel financially free. Who's making you feel that way? Think about it.

Lish: 27:20

There's an agenda, because if the ultimate feeling is something that is going to bring you closer to glory, if the ultimate feeling that you're looking for is something that's going to be a better representation of God and his kingdom here on earth, if the ultimate feeling that you want is something that's going to allow you to be more available to the people that you love and the people that you want to serve, then why would you be having such a strong feeling against doing what it takes to get there? There's an enemy at work, and once I realized that it was, I was good on discipline, because what you're not going to do is use me as a pawn. That ain't happening. Even if you think about Adam and Eve and I say this all the time the devil is not creative. He keeps doing the same thing. Their ultimate feeling was wanting to be like God, wanting to have knowledge, wanting a good thing, but they didn't feel like doing it God's way, so they allowed what they felt in the moment to usurp what they ultimately wanted to feel.

Lish: 28:32

If you are struggling with anything that whether you said you were going to start something, said you were going to change something, said you were going to stop doing something, said you were going to change something, said you were going to stop doing something and the allure of it right, some of you are like, listen, this is the year where I get this thing under control in my character and in my life and in my walk. And it felt great when you were sitting up there at church and the preacher was saying this and everybody around you was saying this. And now it has wore off. You're not excited about purity, no more. Okay, it was exciting. You're not excited about no more. Now you're frustrated. Been there, right, you left the conference, you left the retreat and at the retreat you was all ready to be spiritual, you was ready to be pure, you was ready to give more, you were ready to do all of this stuff, and now it has worn off.

Lish: 29:20

Guys, think about what the enemy is trying to do in that moment. He knows that if you really get a hold on discipline, forget you, let me talk to me. He knows that if I really, if Alicia, gets a hold on discipline, what I will be able to do in the earth for God is scary to him. I know he's shaking in his boots Like if this girl could get a hold on discipline and if she could see herself the way that God sees her, she going to be unstoppable. So let me do everything in my power to make her not feel like doing what it will take to get there. This has changed my whole perspective on when I don't feel like doing what it will take to get there. This has changed my whole perspective on when I don't feel like doing something. And I'm still a work in progress. There's days where I struggle, you know, but I have changed.

Lish: 30:11

So the old me would have never been able to not eat sweets, for was it three months now? Yeah, almost four months now. Never. I was addicted to candy and sugar like by the bed Sour Patch, kids, skittles, starburst, the whole like addicted. The fact that I have not had that stuff even my teens have noticed. We bring snacks to our church. I'm like where the cuties at, let me get a little, let me get a little tangerine, let me get a little water. I'm good on the drinks. Cuties at, let me get a little, let me get a little tangerine. Let me get a little water. I'm good on the drinks, I'm good on they. See the difference, you know, and I realize that I will not be played out of my future. I will not be played out of the joy that I know is coming to me if I obey.

Lish: 30:57

I'm so serious about pushing past my feelings to be disciplined, going into discipline. So listen, all the stuff that y'all will see on my social media, all the things that I'm going to be doing, know that it was all done when I wasn't motivated to do it, including me sitting here right now, like. Know that it was all done when I didn't feel inspired to do it, that it was all done when I didn't feel inspired to do it. Know that I have inspired people when I didn't feel inspiring, because it's not about me. If God uses something that I'm saying to inspire someone, the reason he can do that, even if I don't think I'm an inspiring person or I don't feel like I'm the most, whatever in the moment is because I'm obedient. Discipline is about obedience. Think about a child, right, when you are raising a child or a nephew or whatever, and you're teaching them to do certain things, do you care if they feel like not touching the fire. No, because you are teaching them a skill that will save them in the future.

Lish: 32:05

I believe, in this season of my life, god is teaching me a skill that will help me to be the best for him, the best I've ever been. And I'll be honest with you, guys, although I don't physically see all the results yet, every day I be looking in the mirror like it's my arm getting swollen. It's not like I be trying to see something. And I have seen results on the scale, thank God, but it's slow. It's slow, and I have to remind myself that the result that God is pleased about is my obedience, the fact that I have been able. This is the longest time in my life, guys.

Lish: 32:44

You, when you are trying to break habits that you've had since you were a child. I've been eating candy since I could remember, daily, like you know, I mean airheads. I used to be addicted to all of it. I mean, you know I had. The result is that I have worked on my relationship with food. That's the result, not necessarily what I see on the scale yet, and I believe and know one because of science, but two because of God that I will see the results. You all will see the results. We'll be able to look at this and look at a video in a couple of months and see the results, but right now I can't focus on the results of even what I'm doing financially, even what I'm doing with the podcast. You know this podcast ain't making me no money, not yet. You know what I mean. I can't focus on the result. The result is I said I was going to do something and I'm doing it. The result is God gives me the things to share and I share them and people get helped. That's the result. That's the only result that matters.

Lish: 33:53

The growth and discipline of my life, which I believe will allow God to trust me with bigger things, is the only result that matters right now. And so I've just been really digging deep in my word um, oh. If you read throughout the bible, you will see so many people who did things they did not want to do and it brought God glory and even them glory, like it's all over the Bible, all over the Bible. It's like when you start looking at a car and then you see that car everywhere. That's how I feel, like my eyes are about discipline. Everything I read everything, I see I'm seeing discipline in it. I'm like Abraham sure did not want to bring his son like, but he did it Like. I mean mean like I'm seeing discipline and I'm seeing obedience and things.

Lish: 34:47

And one of the scriptures that I've been holding on to that I definitely want to read real quick is um in Hebrews 12. This scripture has been transformational. I've been reading this scripture my whole life but it's hitting real different these days. It's in Hebrews 12, um, verse 11. It says no discipline is enjoyable. While it's happening it's painful, but afterward there will be a peaceful harvest of right living for those who are trained in this way. That's the nlt version y' this scripture has been getting me through because what I love about it? It says listen, no discipline is enjoyable. It's actually painful. It's okay. It's okay that when you're doing them reps and them sets it's painful. You know there's times I'm just to be honest. You know I'd be tempted to cheat, like if I say I'm going to do you know, you know 16 reps or something, and it start getting painful at 12, I'm like it really don't matter, I could just stop right here. But then I'm like the woman who I want to be, she would finish these reps. She would actually finish this whole set. Finish it. You know it's painful, but afterward the scripture says there will be a peaceful harvest of right living.

Lish: 36:04

For those who are trained in this way I don't know about you I want a peaceful harvest. I want a life that is not void of problems altogether, but where it is clear that I have put in the work to be where I am. I want the harvest. I want it. I want it more than I want to sleep in. I want it more than I want to have an attitude about something. I want it more than I want to shop. I want it more than anything. I want the harvest of right living, which could be different than the harvest I'm thinking of for myself. I have all these lofty dreams and God could be like nope, this is the harvest I'm going to give you. But I know for a fact that when I land in the harvest of what God has for me, I will be joyful. I will not be wishing for something else.

Lish: 36:54

And so if you're in a season where the motivation has run out, the people cheering you on has run out. That happens too. You know, it's cute when you first start, everybody's like, oh, and then after a while they ain't sharing your, your post, no more they it. The allure has worn off. If you're in that season, I want to encourage you, I want to beg you, I, I want to beg you, I want to almost command you to lean into discipline. It is worth it. It is worth it to do the hard thing first. I know that it'll pay off for me. I actually can't wait to see how this season pays off for me and I can't wait to see the things that God puts in my lap and says, okay, now I can trust you. Now I can trust you.

Lish: 37:46

I know you really wanted to eat those things, but you didn't. You did what you said you're going to do. I can trust you. I know you really wanted to quit. You know what you said you were going to do and stop working out and stop, you know, filming and stop doing content, but you kept doing it. Now I can trust you. I know you wanted to. You know, shop till you drop. Even though that wasn't the best thing for your, for your finances and for your future, you didn't do it. Now I can trust you. You know and I'm just using those examples, because that's what's real in my life right now. That was my big three right now. Right, I want to eat fried chicken. I want to shop the way that I used to shop. You know what I mean, and I don't feel like you know, sticking to the plan of building this brand all the time, but I know that is bigger than me and just my goals.

Lish: 38:36

And think about this what's on the other side of you not doing, not doing the thing that God has called you to do? We talked about this on another episode. The cost of disobedience is too high. You can't afford it, even if you think you can. You know the cost of you not taking your health seriously. You know, I saw a quote the other day that said you think you don't have time to work out. Do you have time to be in the hospital? I was like you know, you think you don't have time to pray and read your Bible? Do you have time to be depressed and suicidal? Because, guess what? The time is going to come for one or the other. You have to choose what is in your best interest overall and not what's in your best interest at the moment. So you're not alone if you feel this stuff. You know I'm going through it. I know several of my friends are going.

Lish: 39:44

Some of the people in the room right now is like, yeah, this is for me, like leaning into discipline is something that not only do we have to take seriously, but we have to do it with God. I love the fact that God doesn't call us to follow him without him. Right, it's not like follow me and I'm not going to help you at all. You should just want to read your Bible. You should just.

Lish: 40:07

I remember reading a book called Crazy Love and it was talking about asking God to help you want to be close to him, and I thought to myself wow, what a God we serve. Because if someone came up to me and said, hey, lish, I really don't feel like talking to you. Could you help me want to talk to you? I'd be like you ain't got to talk to me. Bye, you know what I mean. I really don't feel like listening to your podcast. Can you help me? Want to listen to your podcast? Like we can actually ask God. Hey, I really don't feel like reading your word. Holy Spirit, help me crave your word. He's not offended. He knows that we are dust. That's what the Bible says. He knows that we are dust right, and so, if you are struggling to be disciplined, there's so many scriptures about discipline. I would encourage you, just on a very basic level go into your Bible app or go into Google and just put in the word discipline and let all the scriptures about discipline come up and just read them. Just read them. Ask God to help you to be disciplined in the areas of your life that he's called you into. I promise you you will not regret it.

Lish: 41:18

You know, the last question that we always ask our guests is in the grand scheme of things, what do you want your legacy to be? And I've answered that question on some other solo episodes. But you know, in the grand scheme of things, I want, if God wills it, my children, my grandchildren. You know the women and men that I've inspired through this podcast and in my personal life. I want them to see that discipline works. I want them to see that, yeah, lish took this from nothing to something with God. Yeah, lish lost that weight. Yeah, lish and her husband bought that house they saved. I want people to see that discipline works.

Lish: 42:01

We have so many examples of undisciplined, filthy living, and I'm not just talking about from a Christian perspective, just in general. We have so many examples, whether it be in entertainment, politics, even in the church, where we can see what undisciplined living gets us. I personally would love for God to use me as an example of what disciplined living gets you, and so this has been our episode into discipline and I pray that it has blessed somebody, that you feel different than when you started this episode, that you get in community, that you send this to friends, that you listen with a friend and that this episode that you get in community, that you send this to friends, that you listen with a friend and that you guys decide to hold each other accountable, that you share with someone who you think could benefit from this podcast, because the truth of the matter is the world needs people who are going to say no to the things that is hurting the world and yes to the things that will heal the world. So I hope that that helped you guys Listen.

Lish: 43:06

Y'all know how we do on. I'll Just Let Myself In. We speak from the heart, we speak from what's really going on, and so, again, like I said, if this is your first time here, you went right on in with us, but that's how we do here at I. I'll just let myself in, listen. If you loved what you heard and what you saw today, please like, comment, subscribe, leave us a review, share with a friend and welcome them into our world. Over here. I'll just let myself in.

Lish: 43:31

I think I'm gonna start calling y'all my speakers, because I'm Lish Speaks and without y'all, the world won't hear what I'm doing. So I think that's what I'm gonna start calling y'all. So, my speakers, my family, let's spread the message, not just about, you know, discipline, but about really allowing ourselves to walk through our God given doors. We don't need permission from anybody but God to let ourselves into the spaces that he wants us to bring light into. I've had a great time in this episode with you guys. Can't wait to come back next week. Y'all already know same time, same place, peace.